Lonely........Heart

I dont know why this happens...........

Some times I wish if I could be alone for a while.......to scream loudly..........
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And finally, it happens and I am alone at home... with wandering thougthts... Thought about rain... .................................... For the first time in my life this year I started observing the season........

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In winter...Dew Drops shined like jwells in my mind.. as promised this December did not bring any surprise for me.............

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Then came Vasantham.... Flowers every were... even the intermediate ring road was surrounded with lots of small small flowers...one of the best jounrney I had while going home... only me and flowers...every bush wore a flower carpet.. even the worst looking plants had beautiful flowers on them.. I wished if could some more time there..........

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Then fall and the most hated summer... every day in summer I was longing for Rain.. I was dreaming she coming in the night while I am asleep ...through the open window stretch her fingers and embrace me... I asked wind to tell the rain clouds that I am waiting........... with a thirsty heart........... And in monsoon... first rain..like the first lovemaking............ She gifted a bouque of cloudy days to us in Bangalore... so romantic weather.......... And now...why are you keeping away...dont you have anything to gift us.......?

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I haven't done loving you........... I want to get wet in you............... I want to dissolve in you.............. I want to flow away with you................ I want reach the mighty ocean along with your droplets.......... Finally get lost in the cosmic life of the universe......... where are you....?